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SO WILL I
14:56 Apr 28 2005
Times Read: 741
He said, "I will love you till I die."
She said, "That just isn't long enough."
He said, "I will love you till you die."
She smiled and softly said, "So will I."
There is no truth that can not be changed.
There is no hope that can be killed.
Even as the water spills.
Even as the light may fade.
He said, "I will love you till I die."
She said, "That just isn't long enough."
He said, "I will love you till you die."
She smiled and softly said, "So will I."
She once had him in her arms.
She loved his smile and loved his charms.
She never thought there would come a day
When he would ever have to part.
He said, "I will love you till I die."
She said, "That just isn't long enough."
He said, "I will love you till you die."
She smiled and softly said, "So will I."
Now life goes on
She can not tell
If this is a nightmare or is this hell.
She dreams of him
On the long, cold nights
Then wakes to face the facts
In the harsh day light.
RIVER SIDE
00:42 Apr 27 2005
Times Read: 747
They were by the river side
Laughing the day away
They were by the river side
Happy as they had ever been
They were by the river side
When she felt the shifting tide
They were by the river side
The day her heartbeat died
They were an ordinary couple
They had good days and bad
They were happy and sad
Time had fused their hearts and minds
Neither could think of being apart
She loved him more than she could bare
He loved her, she was to him the very air
They were by the river side
Laughing the day away
They were by the river side
Happy as they had ever been
They were by the river side
When she felt the shifting tide
They were by the river side
The day her heartbeat died
It was a cloudy day,
The day he passed away
She couldn't see it coming
She didn't know to pray
One minute he was by her side
The next below the coming tide
She stood there watching the water flow
Looking for her love below
They were by the river side
Laughing the day away
They were by the river side
Happy as they had ever been
They were by the river side
When she felt the shifting tide
They were by the river side
The day her heartbeat died
IN THIS PLACE
03:24 Apr 18 2005
Times Read: 759
I can't see my face in the mirror
Every time I look, it is some old,
dark stranger I see
I can't see my face in the mirror
I can't feel my soul in my body
Every time I try, I only feel a dark,
dank hole.
I can't feel my soul in my body
A void, a nothing, a null and lifeless hole
A vast emptiness of the soul am I
I can't see my face
I can't feel my soul
I can't really be who I am in this place.
AS SHE (I warn you, this is an incest survivors acct so brace yourself)
06:16 Apr 17 2005
Times Read: 767
As she lays there in the darkness
She can hear him at the door
As her breathing gets quieter
She can hear him cross the floor
She becomes still and lifeless
She wills herself to just be still
Yet she can hear him coming at her
She can hear him coming still.
As she lays as quiet as can be
He pulls her panties past her knees
As she tries to make him think she's sleeping
His dirty plans he insist on keeping
As she begs him to stop
As she begs him for mercy
He mocks her, lays atop her
He uses her like beef jerky
Now she's 38, does she still hear the voices?
But of course she does
Now she's 38, does she still hear the curses?
But of course she does.
Now she's 38, does she still feel like that shivering
12 year old?
But of course she does
When will it stop and when will she find peace?
Not until the day after she
dies.
LET ME
10:48 Apr 16 2005
Times Read: 769
YOUR LOVE
10:13 Apr 16 2005
Times Read: 770
Your love was the food of my soul
Your love was all it took to make me whole
Your love is all I miss at the end of the day
Your love
Your love is all it took to make my blues
go away
Your love is all it took to make me stay
Your love is the only thing I thought no one
could take away
Your love
Your love is all I will ever need
Your love is the air that I breathe
Your love is one thing I can't find
Your love is all that's on my mind
Your love
I KNOW
10:09 Apr 16 2005
Times Read: 771
I know the answers in there somewhere
I know the pain is not all there is
I know the fear is not my ruler
I know the answers in there somewhere
I know the shame is not who I am
I know the pain is not all there is
I know that all hope is not lost
I know the answers in there somewhere
I know that the light is not beyond me
I know your heart is not truly gone
I know that peace is in my grasp
I know the answers in there somewhere
I know
THERE ARE TIMES AT NIGHT
10:05 Apr 16 2005
Times Read: 772
There are times at night
I hear your voice
There are times at night
I hate my choices
There are times at night
It feels like you are here
There are times at night
I wish your visage my eyes would
sear
But in the daylight
It is colder still
But in the daylight
Loneliness is all I truly feel
There are times at night
YOU ARE GONE
01:36 Apr 14 2005
Times Read: 778
I can not see the sun
I can not feel the rain
I can not breathe to run
All I can feel is pain
I want to hold your hand
I want to be able to stand
I want to see your smile
But that is just to hard a mile
You are gone and I am alone
You are gone and I drag it about like
a stone
You are gone and your are all I am wanting
You are gone but never forgotten
there are
03:31 Apr 13 2005
Times Read: 782
There are days I can't feel anything but pain
There are days I can't see anything but the rain
There are days I know nothing, not even my name
There are nights I hear only the sound my fright
There are nights I am numb and dumb and a pitful sight
There are nights I can't see past my nose
There are nights I can't see the beauty of even a rose
There are friends whose love has never ended
There are angels whose kindness has never bent
There are those who love me that keep me, me
There are reasons to cry and reasons to hope
there are
THE STORM RAGES ON
06:36 Apr 11 2005
Times Read: 789
The days melt, one into another
I think of you and feel the thunder
The storm inside rages on.
Some days I manage to look fine
Other days I can't seem to control my mind
The storm rages on.
Good memories, bad memories
To me it matters not
You're not here and will never be forgotten
The storm rages on.
I need to feel the warmth of your hand
I need to find a way to understand
I need to find a way to quiet the fear and pain.
But it alludes me still
And the storm rages on.
(Jerald you are sorely missed. Rest in peace my love.)
FOR WHAT I SEEK
06:30 Apr 11 2005
Times Read: 793
I seek the warmth of Love,
Eluding me.
I look far and wide,
My eyes seem to be blind,
My heart so lifeless,
My soul cold and dark.
Many have touched my heart,
But none have filled it with such joy.
Promises broken,
Lies told.
My heart left a wreck,
Hurting my soul.
Why do I keep looking?
I am not so sure,
But to feel this pain again,
And again.
For that one that shall fill my heart,
With such love and joy.
I'd go through all the pain and heartache.
For that one that will.
Love me,
Hold me,
Make my heart whole once again.
Only time will tell.
A MARK LEFT
06:15 Apr 11 2005
Times Read: 794
Through veiled eyes we see our lives, never
knowing where we are going.
The people we meet, the seeds we plant, we
seldom see them growing.
Yet everywhere we go, and with all the people
that we meet,
We leave a mark upon their hearts.
Was it a mark of friendship, a mark that is true?
Was it a mark of joy, or was it a mark of fear?
Did we leave them with a message that helps
them with their toil?
Be careful how you treat the people that come
into your life.
It will either lead to happiness or to suffering,
toil and strife.
Be kind to people when you can and lend a
helping hand,
You never know when you will need the same
from them!!!!!!!!!!
ANGELS
06:13 Apr 11 2005
Times Read: 795
Through life we are cared for by angels unseen.
They guard us from danger, they speek to our souls.
In moments of need, in our hour of doubt,
They console us and tell us things will be alright.
If we listen to their voices and heed their messages,
The troubles that befall us will not destroy or mall us.
So trust in your insights, and cave not to fright.
The rain will soon pass and again will you see the light.
Your angel is busy, beside you, always insisting.
Today is the day you can walk out to the finish.
For he will be there your faith to replinish.
Discover Miracles
06:10 Apr 11 2005
Times Read: 796
In life, there are so many things that cause our hearts to doubt.
Day to day our souls suffer as our hearts get pushed about..
Is this all there is to life, is this all it has to offer?
Nay I say, this is not all, no matter how it may look!!!!
You can not see it all until the end, in this way life is like a book.
From moment to moment new miracles pop~up around each corner.
A new friend, a new hope, a new dream is waiting around the next bend.
Be patient and know it is not done, your story is far from over.
Until it is hold out my friend for the Miracles that you Discover!!!!! :)
CAN YOU
05:48 Apr 11 2005
Times Read: 797
Can you see me in yourself?
My pains, my sorrows, my anger and my needs
Can you see me in yourself?
Can you feel me in your soul?
My joys, my triumphs, my strengths and my hope
Can you feel me in your soul?
Can you meet me in your heart?
Can you love me for all than I am and not
despise me for all that I fail to be?
Can you meet me in your heart?
Can you meet me in your heart?
Once Upon a Time
17:13 Apr 08 2005
Times Read: 802
Once upon a time the sun shone brightly
Once upon a time the breeze lightly
Once upon a time I felt no shame
Once upon a time I knew my name
But once upon a time is not for me
Now all that is gone and I must learn to
carry one
Now I see the light for what it is
A bright and conforting illusion which in time will dim
Each day I rise to harshest light
Each eve I fall to darkest night
If only I could find that light that shown on my before
Then Once upon a time would live once more.
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